I've reached it.  There's nothing left.  I'm about to fall off into a dark, black abyss. 

And right now I don't even care.

I am watching my husband decend into some very scary depths himself.  God made him with the desire to be able to provide for his family.  When "givin' it all he's got" still isn't enough, eventually it crushes a man.  He's fast on his way to that place.  He said just today he feels like an animal trapped in a cage (this house and his job).  I've rarely seen him so low and I don't know how much more either of us can take. 

I have NO joy anymore.  Life has become merely working to live.  I'm tired of well-meaning people telling me how many other people are in the same or worse situations, to keep my chin up because it will get better, that we need to just hang in there because God's gonna do "something"....  And I'm equally tired of other people telling me we'll "never sell our house in this economy!" 

There is only so much a human being can take, and I am broken and crushed.  There is just nothing left...