Angie's Answer

Do you have days where you question everything? 

 That is where I am at in my weight loss efforts right now.  I have not lost or gained anything in weeks, so I am frustrated.  But maybe not frustrated enough with my habits.  I am thankful that I am not dealing with feelings of shame and thinking I am not loved because of my weight.  Shew, I am so glad that part has changed!! I AM desiring to continue this battle because I want to have a healthier, leaner body, not because it will get me love.

  But as for the weight loss I just seem to be hanging on to too many bad habits.  For example, I have had a lot of meetings lately AND they all seem to end up at coffee houses.  Now putting me in a coffee house and asking me not to order or drink is like asking a flea on a dog not to partake of the canine blood.  I am getting my daily quota of caffiene but I am not getting enough veggies in.  This is the hard part for me.  I am still working out (I got back into the groove this week again after missing almost a whole week.)

My girlfriend, Marianne told me it would be harder after I turned 40, but I did not want to believe that.  Now I see how true that may be.  I started this blog because I wanted to be an encouragement to others who may one day be where I am now ( in the act of trimming down) and because if I did not write my feelings and struggles down , then I may forget.  Well right now is one of those bumps in the road I knew would come along.  I have to make some more changes and I do not want to.  I am thinking of stopping the wheat (do NOT hold me to that yet Marianne!) because it might be part of my health issues.  When I grind my wheat I notice I get congested and sneeze for hours.  I do not know if others do this or not but it is obvious every time I grind the flour.  I am also thinking I am going to have to say no to coffee houses so that I can say no to the additional coffees...or help me.... drink it black!!  I don't think so.  I am also going to try to go back to the guideline: "Eat when you're hungry, stop when you're full."  That is harder than it sounds. 

My daughter had friends stay over tonight and it sounds like they are finally asleep, so I am going to bed now as well.  I need to get going early in the AM if I hope to work out and do school before going to see my CHG.   Angie

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11:36, Thursday, May 8, 2008 .. Posted by GypsyFarmGirl

I know what you are saying as I am sure countless upon countless women across this community and the land of blogger world understand what you are going through.