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For ME & My house, this is a VERY Important day, in history. For people that believe as we do, this is the day that, the one and only true GOD almighty revived the Church in 1887. We believe that on January 16th 1887, GOD Almighty spoke to "The Apostle" George Washington Flowers who had prayed and GOD Answered! One Man. One Righteous Man. Not A Savior but a messenger. Thanks be to GOD |
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Hannah is over a month old now! She's had rsv and gotten over it, and now she is just begining to be alert and having a personality other than just being sick. Yesterday she smiled first at me, then Charlie, and finely last night at Dear Wife. As I write, she has fallen asleep on my chest.
Her brother ( Charlie) is standing in the corner because he refused to clean up. He has complained about everything this afternoon. He's Hungry, sick(because he's hungry) has to go potty(doesn't just using it as an excuse) and just as I type he has pulled DW's chair over so he can sit down while he stands in the corner. He has alot to answer for when DW gets up and Charlie gets his just due. Bethany has been quite content to sit and play and keep close watch on Hannah. Normally I would have had them both cleaning but this was a punishment for not obeying his mother upstairs just b4 I brought the children down stairs. He will not play again until he's picked up all the toys. If it is tomarrow or the next day HE WILL CLEAN THEM UP! PERIOD ! Now he's whinning he wants to clean up, but this is just a ploy for he knows that I have no physical control over him when Hannah is sleeping on me. He knows I won't disturb her to discipiline him. Therefore he pretends to want to clean up and when I let him out of the corner to clean he is back to playing and the cleaning doesn't get done. This has all ready taken place twice today, and is a repeating theme, that has had consequences on previous occassions, which he appearently doesn't remember or care to think about while in the corner.
DW had her hands full this morning with the two girls at church. They both wanted her and made a scene of it. She handled them and I assisted. Charlie was Very good at church, he sat with two girls slighty older than himself and was well behaved. Better I might add than he usually is when he sits with either my wife or myself. We were to have company on friday but they cancled due to illness and So we are having the Turkey today we were to share with them.
After our Minister got done with his sermon he gave the opertunity to the deacons, myself included, to speak as well. I stood in support of his sermon and spoke briefly. I ended with the premice that it may possible that when one is bored with a repetitious topic that one needs to pay more attention to get the subtle differences that are trying to be made. I Love to hear the Men of GOD speak, If it were possible I would go every day to hear them. Once a year our church has an annual confrence. While it is physically challenging for me to make all the services during the week long confrence, I always try to make all of the preaching services. While Church Business is important, I am not always directly affected by the business at hand therefore not as likely to go to all of those services even though I SHOULD. Physically it's more difficult to make those services because they typically take place in the heat of the day, and I don't do well in hot temperatures.
Well Enough for today......... I can hear wife moving about upstairs and water running so I know she's cleaning up and prepairing the dinner.
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Happy New Year ! Today was as many around here as of late, wife exhausted and sleep deprived, the children as rambunctious as possible and the dog wants to go out. Today is also a patch day for me meaning I don't feel great to start with and usually I am not able to do anything useful. As usual I got up got the house going and breakfast made, I ate with the family today and after I planned on taking my 3 little wonders down stairs so DW can nap some. As often happens she looks at me looking like death warmed over and sends me to bed for a nap. This being New years day I would like to report that all was wonderful and anew from the ordinary, BUT this is reality. I Love my family and when I am struggling my DW takes over and helps me recover. That is the definition of a truely great wife to me. She is my other half. My Help mate. The One That GOD gave me because he knows what I need most. Some times I take for granted the wonderful things I have because my mind is wrapped up in pain and depression and I am having a hard time escaping the negative loop. Then my DEAREST Wife steps in and helps me up. Sometimes actually physically by allowing me to recover or sometimes it takes the form of hands on helping me to move and to think. There is no other for me and I suspect no other for her either. I think we were two halves not believing the other was out there and the GOD moved all obstacles to put Us together. I THANK GOD for my wife and family. That to me is what I do on New Years day. I don't sit around watching football or parades. For me it isn't a time to think of all the things I am going to do different in the new year but a time to reflect and thank GOD for all he has given me already. Many years ago I would work the Holiday going as far as requesting to work the day. TODAY I celebrate it. No resolutions here. Just Thanks for what I do have. I try every day to be the best I can be so I needn't try to make any special pacts today . Praise be to the God Most High for all that He has given me especially my Dear WIFE. |
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Friday , the last friday this YEAR ! Found out that Our DD is very ill and had to get 3 different meds for her. Hopefully this will allow her to sleep tonight and breath easier. Our friends youngest DD had a birthday party today and all went pretty well. She is 3 yrs old and got the party she wanted : My 4 1/2 yo son, pizza and cake. She's very cute. I bought a trailer today at harbor freight and hopefully I will feel good enough to put it together tommarrow. I am hoping this trailer will allow me to pick up some things that I have been offered but not had a way of getting them home. The other thing is Old Railroad ties that have been discarded by the railway when they did repairs recently. I want to make several things around the homestead that they would be perfect for. I also am going to put a ball on the lawn tractor to pull the trailer for hauling duty. The trialer will also be usefull if we need to transport any animal in the future. The Minivan still smells like Goat poop! and our $500 Dyson vacume does too.. I have our youngest on my chest and the other two here with me and hopefully DW will be able to get much needed rest. The last few days I haven't been able to do anything without tremendus effort. It isn't so much pain related as much as my body being so tired I just can't seem to move. When I do get moving I feel unstable and "spagettish" if you know what I mean. Anyway I figure next year I will make an appointment to see my primary care provider, providing they actually listen and make an apointment. We were at the Va last friday and wife went to over to te clinic while I was having some dental work done and they said she would have to call the number to get an appointment. She told them our situation and they said they would mail out an appointment, << NOT>> what we wanted! We neeed to schedule due to other appointments and we try to combine so we aren't driving 80 miles, one way, to Indianapolis In. any more than nessasary. So this morning in the mail I get .... NOT an appoinment... NO .... I get a letter telling me that I need to call to make an appointment because it's time for me to get checked out. EEEEEEEEEEEEERG!!! I HATE DEALING WITH THE VETERANS ADMINISTRATION! I won't go on about that but needless to say they aren't taking calls to make appointments today because it's FRIDAY before NEW YEAR ! I was on hold for 5 minutes before I hung up. I will call and complain on Tuesday. |
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This Morning I tried to give Dw a Break. I did my part but the one child that cannot be seperated from Her Mommy just yet wouldn't cooperate so Dw didn't get to rest as I intended. The fact of he matter is she is tired beyond repair. She is never going to get better if she isn't allowed so special times TO HEAL. Right now she just isn't able to sleep , rest reasonably, or really even relax much at all. I am not much help. I keep things from going from bad to worse but it rarely stays that way for long. at least long enough for wife to recover. I wish there was more I can do unfortunely I have alot of limitations that are keeping me from doing all that needs done. If I could nurse DD then maybe wife could get some rest, But that ain't happening. I will however at the first opertunity, get myself FIXED! so we have no more children !!!!!!! 3 children are enough
Yesterday I got my Gold crown on one tooth and 2 fillings redone. The fillings have been in need of repair for the better part of the last 20 years. The damage was noted on my out going physical from the military when I was discharged.
Well This years christmas has been tuned down. WAY DOWN. In fact we had planned not going over to my family because we wanted a different more private christmas, well be care what you ask for. Now we are so tired and the demands of our chidren are such that it just isn't possible to do without having alot of stress involved. We will go to church 6 am service and then we will have a gift pressentation around one of our decorative trees that is the only decoration that got takin out of the box. We didn't get to putting decorations up or even buying a real live tree as we had planned. But the children are young enough that it will mater little to them. Next few years will be the ones that are important to the children. They will be able to ask for things and appreciate the celebration for what it is. ENOUGH for now..
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Well with a new born and a sick 22 month old sleep is getting scarce around here. yesterday I asked my wife to return control oer the finances to me. I have more time now than she does, the opposite of when I asked her to handle the finances back in Tonawanda Ny when I was working. Last night we went over the budget and the finances in general. It was a good positive transition. A friend of ours called this morning and reminded me of a call from the other day, I don't remember at all, normally I would blame it on the plate in my head but this ime I think it's the lack of sleep. What ever it is HANNAH is crying so once again I must go |
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Last Night was an unusual one for me. The children were in bed by 9:30 and so were wife & I. Unfortunately I couldn't Sleep! By forcing myself to stay awake when I am very tired, yesterday during the morning hours, I sometimes can't turn off the AWAKE and go to sleep when it is proper time and such. So I was awake until 3:30am. I did how ever get a shower during that time which had been low priority when the children are awake. Robin our pregnant goat has once again used the chicken house to jump on to the fence and this time instead of clearing it she broke it down at a seem. I hopefully will repair that today , and move the chicken house even farther from the fence. Oh Yeah Chickens. I lost one the other day and found her in one of her old laying spots b4 the area was moved. There were alot of eggs there a majority of them not good. I did a full cleaning of both the Chicken and Goat Houses yesterday. I replaced all of the straw and scraped out THE POOP |
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TOday Is yet another Healing day following our Daughters' birth on tuesday. She weighed 8-2 & 20.5" born @ home. It was a wonderful experience as waas our middle childs' home birth. |