I have not been posting lately, this is not a good time of year for me. I have been reading blogs, though. I can`t be without that. I just do `nt like the months January through August. Wow! You say! I know it`s a long time to not like but it`s so blahhhh! Nothing is going on. I don`t get a day off now untill Memoriel Day. Nothing to look forward to. My real mom passed away New Year`s day 1970. Not good for January. That`s why Hubby tries to keep something nice going on for New Year`s eve and New Year`s day.
February has Valentine`s day. I do like that, but what I need is some time off.
March is my Dad and my step-mom`s birthday, still no day off. April, Easter, it seems like Easter isn`t even acknowledged anymore. Something is terribly wrong with that! May I do get Memorial Day. June, nothing. July---I have 2 weeks vacation and my Sweetie Son is coming from Texas to visit. I am very excited and can`t wait. I do not like hot weather, just nice and warm, like 70 to 75 degrees. August is my birthday and my best friend`s birthday. I do look forward to visiting her and her family for a weekend. Then when September gets here, it starts to cool down and I know that the holidays will be on their way.
I think it`s pretty sad to go through your days waiting for something, and not living for the present. I do not want to waste my life. Every day as the work day draws to a close, I think it`s just another wasted day. A day that I could have been doing something at home or with my aging parents. I could do my crafts, practice singing, work out or bake something for my parents. but when I get out of work, I`ve got nothing left. No energy, no enthusiam, no time. I just do the basics like get things ready for the next day, clothes, coffeepot, lunch. And then it starts all over again/
Maybe I feel so bad right now because it has not been a good day. I got in an arguement with someone at work, and almost started another with someone else. Everyone at work must think I`m stupid and live in a cave. I`m the person that they had to find a place for because a robot machine took my place, so I`m the one that gets blamed for things that go wrong. I`m really tired of it. And according to a remark that someone made, must be I`m too old to watch tv or live in a cave with no electric or something. They were surprised that I knew something about a tv show they were talking about.
I have now vented. I could probably go on, but I won`t. We have spent the last 3 weekends at home because I have been sick and I love being home, but now I feel better and I think it`s time Hubby and I went out to eat or someting soon, maybe that will help. I want to be home all the time. I can`t keep up with everything, even though Hubby is a big help, I don`t have time for it all. And then there`s what I want to do. I want to spend more time reading my Bible. 5 minutes in the morning before work dosen`t do it for me, and I get up at 5:00 am.
This is probably my wintertime depression talking. I did get up this morning feeling like an explosion was going to happen. I guess it did. I don`t want to go to work with those people, I want to stay HOME!
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